I know I am supposed to start off by talking about this episode, but I have to go back for a sec to Episode # 2. I figured you would see the rest of my date with Matt in the beginning of this episode but that wasn’t the case. The date was incredible and he was nothing but a gentleman. Of course there was a goodnight kiss and another one on the date. He walked me to the door to say goodnight. When I first walked in, all the girls wanted to know about the date: how it went and whether we kissed. Some seemed pretty jealous, which they should have been, it was an amazing date. ;)

The tractor-driving competition was definitely challenging because I am not used to driving “manual”, they had to quickly teach us all. Also, the first tractor I jumped on was too small (I picked it purposely because I was the smallest girl). I ended up on a huge one and had to dive off every time to grab the bails of hay in order to get them on the back of the flatbed. The bails were secured by string holding them together tightly. Quite a few of them broke and I had to use my arms to scoop up piles of straw. I was smart enough to wear capri pants, most of the girls who were in shorts had their legs torn to shreds and were bleeding and swollen in hives.  Running through and jumping into straw slices and cuts your legs, it’s not soft like hay. I was very proud of how I did at that competition but we were all confused because we were pretty sure Krista (with a K") was the winner of the race. We were confused as to why Brooke won and got a present! If I were in Krista’s shoes I would have been just as angry as she was.

Krista was my closest friend on the show, though you don't get to really see the bond we formed. I was the one who got her the ice-pack for her hand when she got hit with the stick. I was the one reaching up and holding her hand when she was eliminated. It was very hard having her leave. She is such an incredible girl, she has such heart, is such a hard worker, and is absolutely gorgeous! I was very surprised to see her go. Before the tractor race, she knew I had been frustrated and upset that I hadn't won any challenges and had been placing pretty much in the middle-to-end of them all. She asked me if I wanted her to throw the race for me so that I could have a better shot at winning, or at least come close to winning. I couldn't believe my ears! I was touched that she would even think of doing that for me. Of course I told her as much, I appreciated it but told her she should go on and do her thing and I would do my best. I know how hard it was for Matt to let her go, he was definitely very attracted to her and admired her for trying so hard at the challenges and for showing she wanted to be there.

I think in the end it really came down to Matt seeing how pissed off Krista was when some of us were sure she had won the race. Brooke got to "sit pretty" (safe from elimination), and on top of that she got a present! Krista was definitely feeling neglected and it came off as her having a bad attitude and not wanting to be at the farm, however her attitude was really just about the race.

It was hard for all of us to have to live in a house where we felt Brooke and Lisa had very obvious motives for being there and didn’t seem to be true to themselves or to Matt. I think they are both really nice girls and I got along with them fine, but I had to express how I felt. I am always honest, as I said at the picnic, and that’s all I can ever be.